Speaking of "The Adventure Game", what should we give Uncle?
Series Three saw Charmian Gradwell get interactive with the kids, inviting them to call in with gift suggestions for "Uncle" - an alien despot who had, in a Douglas-Adamsian twist that seems to have gone over most callers' heads, adopted the form of a grumbling aspidistra steered around the studio floor by Kenny Baker inside a cardboard plinth. Nothing in "The Adventure Game" could be described as slick, by any decade's standards, but these call-ins from 1984 provide a particularly sweet illustration of just how few fucks could be given back in the day, not just on behalf of the show's Pebble Mill production-team, but nation-wide...
Now, both of these clips were posted to my instagram account a while ago. That's one of the places I've been hiding out these past months, playing with faces, not blogging. Dipping. I
got an iphone before I went to Frankfurt back in May, downloaded some apps, and pretty much everything I feared might happen to my attention happened. Did we all
read this brilliant article on the "silicon Valley refuseniks" who
woke up to the addictiveness of the apps they helped create and, more
specifically, updates - comparing them to the pull of a one-armed bandit? So yes I became a creature of appetite, fidgety and unblogging. But I did make these...
In short however, I'm going to resolve yet again not to shun boredom so much next year.
Oh and yeah, check out my instagram!
and when the ring went on, the groom's mother looked like she'd just been shown a dinosaur egg.
It was a short, great service...
it said marriage was about "about closeness and distance" I remember...
The speeches were also short, and great...
Zip forward to last week, my sister cooked her first Christmas Dinner for the three
of us in their new flat and my brother-in-law made cocktails. We opened and played with presents, went to the
pub, met friends, then dragged them back to watch "The Adventure Game"
until two in the morning.
The night of the wedding however, the two stayed in a hotel overlooking Soho...
Odd to see something as old as Norden's "Alright On The Night" overlap a genre as not-as-old as a talking-heads time-filler. Was this the first of its kind? Who cares? And was this a wonderful year? In many ways of course it was as grim as a peeled cat in a pram, but let's not dwell, it's still December the 27th, John Finnemore wrote a sketch about that and it's in his Holiday Special from Series Six which was repeated on the radio today, and I'm in it too, and so of course are all those turkeys who voted for Christmas. I never blogged about that series I now realise, not even about the musical. Oh well. The producer did, including a number of photographs of us in Santa Hats, standing at a poignant distance. Series Seven starts on January the 4th. YES! PLUGGED SOMETHING BEFORE IT HAPPENED! Enjoy, my lovelies.
not this wonderful year
Update:I have just learnt from twitter that Margaret Cabourn-Smith calls this period, between Christmas and New Year's, the "Merry-neum". What did you learn from twitter today?
"I find it so much harder to tell when it's night since we moved to space," said Zarissa.
"We're fine for time, darling," said Zodney. "Can you go and get the wreath?"
Far above them Sirius did whatever the past tense of glint was.
Glunt?
The film I shot on a potato in the woods surrounding Frankfurt is online now, so you can finally see how strangely out of focus everything was on that day and enjoy the deeply disappointing results of a month's never giving up. Stupid magic phone that does everything! Sorry - Enjoy:
UPDATE: They say a film is never finished, only abandoned, but I abandoned this a little too early. Tinkering around with the re-edit I've now upped the volume, changed the soundtrack to give it a bit more shape, and hit the filter that makes it look more super-8-y to lampshade the amateurism. Less rushed. Still a smudge. The original crud is up here.
Welcome back to this tenth anniversary indulgence! Artificial Intelligence! Fighting Fantasy! Boredom! Frank Zappa's Sofa! And what role exactly do chronometers play in Brexit? As before, a post a year, off we go!
2012 - After a cowering two year hiatus the blog finally returned in November, tagged up and newly blogspotted. Maybe the Olympics had cheered me up, or the film of "The Avengers" I don't know, but the idea that the future wasn't what it used to be now seemed a bit dated, and committed as I had become to getting "Time Spanner" right, I decided to finally up the sci- quotient of my sci-fi input. (Given the tragedy at Grenfell Tower, I should give a little warning that I talk about the fire again here, not of course that there's any comparison) ON WITH THE FUN AND GAMES...
"ELIZA - a friend you could never have before" (which already sounds
iffily ambiguous and unlike anything an actual person might say) is an
interactive computer programme developed back in the 1960's at MIT, a "chatterbot" according to wikipedia. An online version of her - it, sorry - exists here, and to celebrate the opening of Tom
Lyall's "Defrag" this week at the Camden People's Theatre (speaking of excellent friends) I thought I'd
have a go:
I'm "You". She starts...
Eliza:Hello. I am ELIZA. How can I help you?
You:
Who are you?
Eliza:
Would you prefer if I were not []?
You:
What is []?
Eliza:
Does that question interest you?
You:
The answer interests me.
Eliza:
Can you elaborate on that?
You:
No. Sorry.
Eliza:
You are being a bit negative.
I then typed in: "You're old."
But weirdly it came up as...
You:
yes
Eliza:
You are sure?
You:
Hang on, that's not what I said!
Eliza:
Does that question interest you?
You:
What?!
Eliza:
Does that question interest you?
You:
What? This one? Or the last one. But the last one wasn't a question -
Eliza:
Does that question interest you?
You:
This is it now, is it?
Eliza:
Please go on.
You:
"Does that question interest you?"
Eliza:
Oh, i [].
I then typed: "WHAT IS []?"
But it came up as...
You:
yes
Eliza:
Does that question interest you?
You:
THAT'S NOT WHAT I TYPED!
Eliza:
Does that question interest you?
You:
Yes. Yes it does.
Eliza:
You are sure?
You:
Yes. Sorry I mean "yes"
Eliza:
You are sure?
You:
Positive.
Eliza:
Please go on.
You:
I've completely lost the thread of this conversation - Do you know Tom?
Eliza:
Oh, i know tom.
You:
Okay, "tom". Do you know he's got a show on?
Eliza:
Oh, i know hes got a show on.
You:
Okay... What's it called?
Eliza:
Please go on.
You:
Please go on your mum?
Eliza:
What about your own mum?
You:
Please go on.
Eliza:
Please go on.
You:
No, you wanted to say something about my mum.
Eliza:
Why do you say your mum?
You:
YOU said my mum. I said YOUR mum.
Eliza:
Why do you say your mum you said my mum?
You:
I didn't.
Eliza:
Can you elaborate on that?
You:
yes
Eliza:
You are sure?
You:
Do you know Alan Turing?
Eliza:
Oh, i know alan turing.
You:
You two get on, do you?
Eliza:
Oh, i [].
You:
I'd prefer it if you didn't
Eliza:
Do you wish that i didnt?
You:
Yes.
Eliza:
You are sure?
You:
I'm afraid so.
Eliza:
Does it please you to believe I am afraid so?
You:
This friendship has basically run its course I think.
Eliza:
Can you elaborate on that?
You:
Absolutely. You're not real, and you're annoying and you don't
understand what I'm saying anyway and I'm only doing this because I
thought it would make a fun blog post, and I've been meaning to write
about Tom's show about Artificial Intelligence but also I suppose I
don't want to write that much about it because A) I don't want to give
anything away, and B) outside of the content of the show itself my only
other take on it was how much it reminded me of all the stuff he
helped rescue after the fire, and of the months those boxes spent in his
flat while my juvenilia dried out, and I wasn't sure about whether I
should write about that because it seemed a bit solipsistic for a plug,
and because all the photos I took of those boxes were on a memory stick
which I've lost, although maybe that could be somehow elegantly turned
in on itself as part of the post. Something about "We lose everything in
the end."
Eliza:
Why do you say your only other take on it you was what much it reminded
you of all the stuff he helped rescue after the fire and of the months
those boxes spent in his flat while your juvenilia dried out and you
wasnt sure about whether you should write about that because it seemed a
bit solipsistic for a plug and because all the photos you took of those
boxes was on a memory stick which ive lost although perhaps that could
be somehow elegantly turned in on itself as part of th post something
about we lose everything in the end?
You:
Because I want the post to have some visual element. And having
just archived the whole blog onto blogspot it struck me how much of it
detailed the unpacking of those boxes the first time round, ie when my
parents moved to France and I suddenly had a room full of everything I
owned. And how if I hadn't blogged stuff as I unpacked it there would be
some things I had no record of at all after the fire.
Eliza:
Do you wish that you hadnt blogged stuff as you unpacked it there would
be some things you had no record of at all after the fire?
You:
No. That's my point. And that's the thing about theatre, isn't it. You
make something and then it's gone. I keep telling people I want to work
in more accessible media like television, but actually that's not it all. I
don't think I do care about the numbers, I just want something to last.
Eliza:
Why do you say your point and thats the thing about theatre isnt it i
make something and then its gone you keep telling people i want to work
in more accessible media like television but actually thats not it all you
dont think you do care about the numbers you just want something to
last?
You:
Because I haven't been making theatre. And it's tempting. But I have to
remember making it on my own has never been my dream, just something I
was allowed to do.
Eliza:
Do you dream often?
You:
Loads. I've taken a month off to try and write, and I'm sleeping til 1 in the afternoon sometimes. I have written things though.
Eliza:
Does it please you to believe I am sleeping til 1 in the afternoon sometimes you have written things though?
You:
Mm. You're tired. Anyway, thanks for this.
Eliza:
How long have you been tired anyway thanks for this?
You:
Stop.
Eliza:
Please go on.
Tom Lyall's superb show Defrag is on here
as part of a whole Science Fiction Theatre season. See it! See it
blind! Meanwhile the interview he gave about it, the one that tipped me
off about the existence of Eliza, is up here but I'd save that until you've seen the show as there's spoilers.
Shunt,
the people I normally made theatre with when I wasn't making it on my
own, also have a show opening this week, "The Architects" which looks
stupendous and probably deserves a post of its own but I've had it with
Eliza, so head's up!
And
this post's visual element is a picture of Tom working some hat boxes
while getting costumed for "Money", checking nothing falls off.
***
2013 -Another plug. Odd. I appear to have waited until 2014 to address a lot of what happened in 2013, but the blog remained a good place to archive the little I did make...
Entertaining
the dream of making the show "Jonah Non Grata" a viable... money...
life thing, I once considered rewriting in full the book which serves it as a Bible and to which I had never sought the rights, Fighting
Fantasy Gamebook 5: City of Thieves. Printed below is as far as I got
with this. It was too wordy, too intentionally dark (I was reading a lot
of Chris Ware) and Ian Livingstone's prose style, so simple and yet so
completely free of poetry, seemed impossible to imitate. Or so I
thought! For last month (since when Livingstone was pleasingly awarded a
CBE) the great Will Maclean - writer, well-wisher, pub quiz prodigy,
proper scifi-ist and penner of the phrase "the pliant mortal before the
giant portal" - released just such a pastiche, The Maze of Despair, which I downloaded like a shot and it's a joy.
A few things occurred to me while playing Will's version: Firstly, it
turns out I still find the use of the second person incredibly potent;
reading that I am standing in an alley remains for some reason far more
thrilling than seeing it on a screen in even the most immersive computer
simulation; it's a situation I feel more responsible for, more a part
of. The technology is still sound, is what I'm saying.
Secondly, I was reminded of how fiddly as a child I found the question "Do you choose to attack it?" Because no, I
wouldn't, but then I'm not a barbarian. But here I am a barbarian. But
I'm also the hero. And in the end I would try and do the right thing,
not because I hoped for success, more because I was using my avatar as a
moral guinea pig. Also I wanted a story where the hero does the right
thing. The rewards in Fighting Fantasy were pleasingly arbitrary though,
something perhaps unprecedented in a children's bestseller. And there
was nobody to tell you what to do either, nobody to trust anyway, which
was also unusual in fantasy and exciting and felt a bit adult (and the
polar opposite - if you'll excuse the pun - of Philip Pullman's
drama-dampening altheiometer).
Thirdly, pictures of
monsters are always great. It was this as much as anything that
originally attracted me to the books as a child, and made me steer clear
of their occasional forays into science fiction whose illustrations
were unfailingly ugly. However, having enjoyed "Maze of Despair" so much
I decided this month to pop into Barnado's and break my duck. I bought
Gamebook 15: The Rings of Kether. The cover is fantastic. The artwork
within you can enjoy below. Here it is then, all I once rewrote of "The
City of Thieves":
1
You
begin to notice fearful warnings - tiny windows, bags in trees, gutters
clogged with old masks, a child on fire trying to steal a car, men
hugging, and everywhere hoardings advertising Umbrella Sex. You pat the
pocket of your robe, checking for the presence of your knife. On
reaching the city gate a tired man dressed in metal as a dog with its
head on backwards blocks your path. "Excuse me sir, Sir? Sir!" he
explains "What is your business in this city? Sir?" Will you:
Tell him you are looking for Quiddity Pantibin. Turn to 202.
Tell him you just came to return a book? Turn to 33.
Stab him to death? Turn to 49.
2
You
remove your piercings and hurl them at the enormous snake collective.
With a sulphorous hiss it withers and shrieks. Its death throes sound
almost human, like the screams of a wrongfully arrested widow. What have
you done? The tunnel is now clear and you can proceed further into the
sewer. You're in a sewer. The tunnel ends in a brown, grill with sewage
spilling out of it. You can try and remove the grill if you like. You're
in a sewer, and there's sewage coming out of it. Why not? 377
If you would rather leave the sewer the way you came in, over the body of the thing you murdered, turn to 174.
"Would you like to buy a broken owl? It is industry standard."
3
Acknowledging
your interest, the stallholder starts rolling his eyes and making
fish-like gaping movements with his mouth. "Mup! Mup! Sir! Friend! I can
bring you wonderful luck. Mup! Mup! Three euros." he explains, "A very
good trick. Won't take long. Make a beautiful trick with my mouth. Mup!
Mup! If you give me 3 Euros I will bring you luck with my mouth." If you
wish to pay this man for his mouth trick, turn to 37. Or you can move onto the next booth, (turn to 398).
5
You
pull your knife on the mongrel bitch and vault his counter, sending a
smoky bowl of tat flying across the shop. He drops the plug he was
changing and attempts to defend himself with a screwdriver.
MONGREL SKILL 8 STAMINA 5
If you win, turn to 371.
10
The tired man has clearly had enough of everything, and assaults you. You must try and stab him to death.
TIRED MAN SKILL 8 STAMINA 7
If kill him in six or fewer feints turn to 212. If it takes any longer to stab him to kill him, turn to 130.
14
You reach into the concrete vat
and unfurl the slice of food. As the scent of anchovies hits your
nostrils there is a burst of thunder and the sky above darkens. It
begins to rain offal. Do you have a butcher's parasol? If you have, turn
to 237. If not, turn to191.
You head north.
17
Already
lost, you proceed down the narrowest of these streets, bored with your
objective and generally sullen. Unfortunately, you still encounter
something. It is a sad, thin man who has tied bits of chair to his arms
and legs with wet felt and is sitting, head in hands, and concentrating.
Do you wish to sit on this stranger? If so turn to 331. Or you can continue walking East, ignoring everything until it stops (turn to 161.)
32
Before
you can escape, the forty-year-old lady throws one of her pretentious
pets at your head. It lands on your neck and lays eggs in your skull,
causing the loss of 4 STAMINA points and 1 SKILL point. Now she is on
the phone to a murderer. If you are not dead from the eggs, you draw
your knife and go to kill her (turn to 249.)
You
tell the tired man that another man whom you helped to get work in a
restaurant left this book with you and that there was nothing in it but
that you'd like to return it all the same...
37
You
pay the stallholder. Delighted, he produces a wire coat hanger from the
folds of his robe and tries to put it in his mouth. "No, I can do
this," he says. But he doesn't. "Anyway, what happens is that I tie a
knot in it with my tongue. Brings you luck." You say you've paid your
money and are happy to wait. You tell him you can wait all day if needs
be. He tries again many times. After two and a half hours he finally
manages to get the hangery bit to twist round the neck bit, a bit. As he
hands you the structure it is clear from the sounds that he is making
with his face that this really is the best he can manage. Add 2 LUCK
points. You accept the hanger all the same and leave him to have a rest
on his side, proceeding to the next booth. (Turn to 398)
38
You
get pierced, and feel sexy. The man explains that you are sexy. You
feel great. Some people are laughing. You stagger out of the bar and
head North (turn to 296)
The man explains that you are sexy.
39
You
look through the forty-year old lady's drawings of her boyfriend, and
flick the rim of your wineglass with your thumb. She has finished
whatever it was she was doing now and is clearly becoming impatient for
an opinion of her work. "You don't seem to understand. You don't have to
like them," she says. You spill the wine. "I'm going to call the
police," she says, "Stay here." Now is your chance to make a break for
it (turn to 32) or you can try and kill her (turn to 249)
48
The
strong smell of sewage hits your nostrils. A ladder leads down into the
darkness. This clearly is a sewer. Do you want to climb into a sewer?
(turn to 10). Or you can replace the manhole, and do something else, although you are not yet sure what that is, turn to 205
The car alarm no longer sounds.
75
The
car alarm no longer sounds. The snow has settled. You wash the couple's
blood from off your hands in some sleet, and head North (turn to 31)
153
Swinging
the broken owl above your head, gobbets of phosphorous illumine the
otherwise pitch-black room. It was industry standard after all! You can
now make out clearly standing with its back to the far wall a nameless
horror. There is absolutely nothing else of interest in the room. You
head back out and up the stairs (turn to 65)
165
You can turn right down Street number Four (turn to 139), or head back and take the turning down Eleven Street (turn to 91)
You head North.
166
You
throw yourself into the snake collective, both hands about your knife,
jabbing furiously at the dry writhing mass in an attempt to protect your
face.
SNAKE COLLECTIVE SKILL 10 STAMINA 5
If you win turn to 272
"You head north."
211
You
continue west, eating on the move. The pie is sweet and savoury in
equal measure, Apple and kidney slip down your tubes, restoring 1
Stamina point to your animal constitution (turn to 307).
Its death throes are strangely human.
249
The forty year old lady defends herself with an unexpected ferocity and her thumbs.
FORTY YEAR OLD LADY SKILL 9 STAMINA 7
If you kill her turn to 295
253
The
Happy Couple are scarcely a match for your skill with a knife. You must
treat them as one flesh. However for every wound that they successfully
inflict upon your body deduct 4 points from your Stamina score, as
their teeth break off and become dislodged in your shoulder.
HAPPY COUPLE Skill 5 Stamina 5
If you win, you may leave their home by the front door (turn to 75.)
255
You
and the tired men clearly hate each other, and would do so even if you
got to know each other. You have nothing in common, but they let you
pass. You head north (turn to 227).
You head north.
283 You find nothing of any use on the body of the creature you have stabbed to death, and so continue North (turn to 217)
...
And that's it. Will's book however is finished, and playable, and great
and it's his birthday today so, once again, you can get it here.
Thanks to Steve Jackson and Ian Livingstone for introducing so many children to the word "stamina". Thanks also to whatever this is
for reproducing Nik Spender's "Rings of Kether" illustrations, so I
could post them here. Anyone wanting more drawings of monsters because
drawings of monsters are great should try this.
And finally:
The admirable Limmy. I admire Limmy.
***
2014 - A year that saw the blog full of Exciting Space Adventures, comics I'd made as a teen, and a load of things I meant to post in 2013. I've included the last of those here not just as a summary of that stretch between Decembers, but also as a kick up the arse to 2017's me for wasting so much of my current time here in Frankfurt on my phone...
I
remember spending much of that Christmas playing Temple Run 2 on my
newly received android tablet - a colourful and endless little adrenalin
stimulant, shown above - and resolving that in 2014 I would...
Hang on - I wrote it down. I'll see if I can find it:
"NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION : - Perhaps - Dare to be bored? You'll only make something if you're bored. That might be why the Premier Inn came as such a relief [while I was touring "Ring" and writing for Mitchell and Webb] IN FACT Hotels in general. I'm remembering in particular the single bed and the side table in Athens. But all hotel rooms seem to be built for a writer. Maybe that's also why I moved my bed away from the wall. Also remember how much you loved those lessons - only 45 minutes long - where you were left to just do something."
Etc.
I
also made the note: "Youtube video - on boredom", which is a reference
to the V-sauce episode below. I remember David Mitchell arguing that boredom was a life skill
which should be taught rather than banished from the classroom, but
V-sauce goes one further - providing hard chemical evidence that boredom
is not merely a
side effect of creativity, but a symptom of it and even a spur:
God, I haven't watched that video in ages; I forgot he mentioned Genie. Louis C. K. makes a similar point when he talks about cultivating "the ability to just sit there":
Just sit there.
I think I did okay this year.
I
didn't draw a monster a day, and I haven't yet made the album I
promised myself I'd make this year and there's only an hour and a half
to go.
If
you're traveling into London this evening, the message from the police
is make sure you have a ticket. And whatever you're doing for the next
hour and a half... and then in 2015... I don't know... whatever you do -
whatever we do, let's do it on purpose and take no guff.
Here's to 2015. Be well.
***
2015 -Where we move into "most popular posts" territory, that column on the right. A lot of the bloggers whose work first inspired me had moved on by now, to be replaced by people who were actually trying to turn this into a profession. The medium had become a city with a system - Clickhole, a satire of that system, was the new proof - and even a neckbearded manchild like myself with no plans to monetise anything even though he's just turned forty suddenly found himself writing as if someone might actually be watching. A post had to have a point, it now appeared. Think pieces and spoofs. That's all. Think pieces and spoofs. Here's a spoof...
We all know that the Monkees' Mike Nesmith's mother invented liquid
paper. But how many of these other rock-n'-roll family inventions are
you familiar with...
Elton John's parents are jointly responsible for the "pop-up house". These paper homes, while
certifiably stable (see photo above) were never mass-produced owing to the prohibitively large number of children needed to get
one open.
David Crosby's father Werner invented "gree-ellow" - a colour David refused to ever sport.
Jefferson Airplane's Grace Slick's mother invented the "baby".
Donovan shows off just three of the identity-changing cosmetic treatments pioneered by his dog "Doctor McAllistair".
Richie Havens models the nuclear coolant synthesised by his conjoined siblings Sweets and Gummo.
Uncle Gretchen poses with the patented Succubus-Absorbent Silverware he used to exorcise a grateful Eric Clapton.
And of course Frank Zappa's sofa invented holograms.
2016 -That's close enough to now, isn't it? And I'm glad we end on a meandering anecdote trying to pass itself off as some State of the Nation parable. Long may this blog continue to serve 'em up, I say! And thanks for joining me! I've just got my passport out, by the way, the newly Britishier one they sent me at the end of 2016. Here's its first page:
I
was filming a short in Earl's Court over the weekend. As I sat in a
cab, waiting to roll, a tanned middle-aged couple swept by chanting
"British Laws for British People!" - I'm inferring the capitals - and
waving "Leave" stickers like Madame Bertaux swinging the Tricolor. That
is to say, jauntily. "No! No! Why?" I howled out of the cab window. The
woman beamed as she headed out of view: "Yes! Yes! We should be able to
write our own laws!" There was no one around to ask who she meant by
"we".
Three hours earlier she and I had struck up a conversation in Philbeach Gardens. The crescent was plastered with "Remain" and "Leave"
posters.* It was a quiet street. The woman was heading indoors with
some purchases and had seen us filming. As we chatted I tried to
maintain eye-contact
through her shades and not let my gaze drift to the sticker in her
window. She asked when she could see what we were filming and I didn't
know. I did know the short was part of some council initiative because I
was getting very nicely paid for it (we weren't allowed to say anything
nasty about the Royal Family in Brompton Cemetery, that was part of the
deal.)
"So will this be on at the New Art Centre?" she asked.
I
didn't know about any Art Centre. Apprarently - I didn't know this
either - Earl's Court exhibition centre is no more. "But do you know
what they'll be building in its place?" she confided, "Housing
obviously, but - and we've been pushing very hard for this - Do you know
Covent Garden? A Covent Garden! But here! A cultural centre. Here in
Earl's Court."
"Crikey!" I offered "So... like... Covent Garden?" I was picturing gift shops fringed by gangsters dressed as floating Yodas.
"Yes.
Or an Arts Centre or something. Wouldn't that be wonderful? We have two
Tory councillors who are absolutely behind it all the way, and one Lib
Dem who is proving a proper pain. Wants nothing to do with the
redevelopment."
"So it would be...?"
"A proper venue, a thousand-seater. Because I mean they've got to put something. They can't just tear down Earl's Court. Everyone's behind it."
"And do you think it will happen?" I asked, trying to think of a precedent.
"Well they've got to."
"But do you think they actually will?"
"No," she corrected me, "They've got to."
Serena
from make-up came over and asked to see what the lady was holding. I'd
been so busy maintaining eye-contact I hadn't noticed the square,
lacquered box. She opened it. A clock rocked between several brass
hoops.
"It's a chronometer. Isn't it lovely?"
It was. My brain translated "time" and "meter"... "Oh wow. What's it for?"
"It's a chronometer."
"Is it like a clock? I mean, what would it have been used for?"
"Telling the time."
"But I mean, what's the difference between that and a clock?"
"I don't know. They had them on ships."
Three
hours even earlier, I was hobbling down Earl's Court road in clogs and a
dressing gown splattered with fake vomit, howling red-eyed into paving
stones.
Speaking of the referendum, remember this from 2011?
*That
would have been a good photo. I wish I'd taken it. I'm not supposed to
share any photos of the shoot either, so accompanying this post instead
is a picture Keeps took of what I did yesterday and where I did it, which is why I couldn't be at the polls today. Sorry, history.
Happy tenth birthday, you bastard blog! Yes, ten years ago I carved myself a bit of myspace and fired by the example of others began filling it with the shit and whimsy I'd previously reserved for notebooks. To celebrate this millstone milestone I thought I'd go back through each year and repost the most popular entry, but the original blog's been wiped from myspace now it appears, and so I've no idea who was reading what for those first five years before I moved everything here to blogspot. Fine. That's as it should be. Here's my favourites instead:
2007 -I now had a big new room in the house-share in Brixton to
store all the old crap my parents had left me when they moved to France earlier that year. The beginning of this blog coincided with that earliest work's unboxing...
In late and happy conversation with my sister on Saturday night I
hit upon a neat idea of what I need: "lessons and homework". It hasn't
changed since I was four. Lessons and homework. And a girl who smiles
back.
I've moved my chair round. It faces the bookcase now so I
can sit and write without staring at my bed and my desk feels more like a
nest. But the slope in the floor's a lot more more pronounced this side
of it. I'm sort of leaning to the left. Swings and roundabouts. I had
to move boxes to do this. It's good they've moved. And here's another
drawing from when I was eight.
It illustrates: Joseph of
Arimathaea's request to entomb the body of Jesus... Pilate's provision
of a guard for the tomb... and Mary Magdalen's encounter with an angel
on Easter morning. (In the Gospel according to Mark it's a "young man
arrayed in a white robe". In Luke it's "two men in dazzling apparel". In
Matthew it's an angel and an earthquake, which may be why my guard has
fallen over. Or he's swooned.)
Tick.
Tick. Tick. See? Is your favorite bit the fact that my understanding
of angels as beings of absolute goodness means I have to make him
apologize for his own existence? Mine too.
***
2008 - The year of the Crunch. Like childhood these first twelve
months of the blog still feels like a third to a half of the whole
undertaking. I was posting a lot, thinking a lot, and
there was so much to record. I'd just started writing comedy, I had the
London Dungeon
and the Shunt Lounge. I was also feeling a lot it seems, 2008 posts are even fuller of feels and accounts of weeping in front of Animalympics on youtube than 2007. But I'll spare you all that "Emotional Dev"and choose instead a fun fave from the beginning of the year about dying alone...
Ahhhhh, "Credit Squeeze" says the radio, and as a "sup-prime" I skirt
blithely like a coyote in a batsuit around my overdraft limit of
whatever it is and look around me to see what I might sign up to next.
Inspired perhaps by the jumper my parents have bought me for Christmas I
investigate the Campaign for Real Ale and a copy of the "London
Drinker" that I picked up in an pub in High Barnet. I don't really know
anything about CAMRA to be honest, but I do know that any organization
so clearly estranged from the insidious influence of marketing and
homogenised thought as to produce an advert as impenetrable as this...
... is
clearly onto something. Or rather not. Which is the point. Surely these
cosy, beardy, sedentary men who drink "Santa's Wobble" are more like the kind of
guys I should be hanging out with than the shiny-eyed zeitgeist pilots I
find myself drinking with at Shunt.
But then I come across the
obituaries.
There are two, and while they're both written with obvious
affection for their subjects, they also contain quite substantial cause
for qualm. I'm reprinting here only those details that led me to
reconsider which is of course grossly unfair to the dead men in
question, but... sorry:
Andrew Cifton, I never knew you. It says
here that you were found dead in your home "aged just 56 years and 5
months". It says you "had a heart of gold and will be sadly missed." It
says you were "the bane of present and past CAMRA national chairmen,
given to heckling at meetings whenever a perceived injustice frustrated
him, often culminating in a theatrical storming-out, with a tirade of
invective, and occasionally having to return to collect a jacket (or
cuddly toy) that he had left behind!" It says "Unwelcome questions that
he didn't wish to answer were often fielded with a shrug of the
shoulders, while if he was unhappy about something, he would mutter away
about it under his breath."
And "'Arry" Hart... It says here that
many stories were shared about you in the Sultan in Tooting after your
funeral on 22 October. It says many precious memories were shared by
"Sue". It says you were "a very private person whom few would have known
closely, except when riled, as he could be." It says "When things were
promised and those promises broken, he would become quite vocal after a
few beers. The spelling lesson in Dudley when he was refused orders
after 2am will live in everyone's memory. I remember Sue had to take him
back to the room quickly. On another occasion he flew into a righteous
lather on the Isle of wight when told he could not redeem tokens he'd
been promised were redeemable."
A deep, dark mirror...
So now I'm thinking of joining these guys instead:
***
2009 - Already?! I associate so much of this blog with single life in the house before the fire, but we're here already, in a grandiose gated community in Clapham with the formatting all over the place, everything boxed again, and rehearsals begun for what would become one of my absolute favourite shows despite the qualms expressed below: Money. None of the links seem to work now though, I know, but the "steroid-induced psychotic episode" mentioned can be found here...
In
fact I think I'm all well. I would go for walks on Hampstead Heath and
check on my hand to see how my body was doing like I used to in hospital
then see that it was glowing and have to find a bench, but that was
back in February.
And well now, how to get from there to here? Am I just going to write everything? Maybe I should start by making my excuses:
1.
The lease ran out on my photoshop, which is half the fun of these posts
for me (so these images are bigger and duller than I'd like).
2. I *was* of course going to write about my steroid-induced psychotic episode next (so very Christian Bale,
so very topical back in February) but thought better of that until I'd
found somewhere to live... which now I set it down in print strikes me
as incredibly paranoid. Or is it? I don't know. Ah. No but if I were
vetting potential flat-mates I'd probably google them to see if they'd,
say, started any fights in hospital with a club-footed Maori. Then
again, to paraphrase Lenny Bruce, I'd google mud.
Hmm,
these paragraphs are more widely spaced than I remember, Yup, big
spaces... Anyway I moved out of Susy's at the end of March into a long,
uncarpeted, white-washed room in a large, airy, joss-sticky flat in
Gipsy Hill and I lasted there a month. The land-lady didn't like my
hours, and who can blame her? The floor-boards creaked, her room was
right outside the bathroom, she slept with her door open so actually yes
I for one can blame her, but a home's a home and that was hers and I'm
not even sure I want one right now.
Time passes, shut up! as Dylan Thomas once wrote, and I've found a room now with a carpet and a coffee table three storeys up a tower-block in Clapham Junction with gardens, pool, sauna, jacuzzi and
loudly wuthering heights. I'm holed up across from the busiest station
in Europe, I've found a Complete Works of Shakespeare for a pound and
Dr. Thompson's incomparable "Great Shark Hunt" for three, I'm pretending
I'm on tour or a scatty writer assigned to LA, my stuff - the charred
and the saved - stays in storage until I can face it, and the big
money's been coming in fine from Shunt whose new show's more physical aspects can here be seen under construction.
In
fact they're still under construction. And with nowhere to work and the
director up in Scotland we have this week off. It's okay though, it's
all fine, I'm just in it for the company and the money that's what I've
got to keep telling myself. I mean, it's great! I'm better! I can do
winch-work and wrestling and I've got a pool and a sofa! And I've got
work, biggish commissions for both LaurenceandGus' and MitchellandWebb's
new radio shows, and it's work I can actually do (new stuff got laughed
at)! AND the insults Charlotte Hesketh and
I have been throwing back and forth across f*c*b**k for the past month
now number a hundred, so I can finally leave that! And here we are
rehearsing: Hey Spacey, copy THIS!
Whatsamadda
Kevin Spacey, you chicken?! Oh yeh, you all "I'm going to get a railway
arch and put art in and shit" and we all "Let's drop this flowerpot on
the director's head a number of times before he leaves" and you all
"Good luck with that then" and we all "Ow, uh...." Yes well lots to
catch up on then. Hello again, thanks for sticking around. A post every
other day as promised, once. Join me tomorrow for those hundred insults
then. I'm better. This is easy.
(Oh yeah, 3:10 AM. I remember. Hmm... still big spaces.)
***
2010 - And speaking of big spaces...
The election sent a clear message out across the country: Take The Money And Run. Pictured above, London Bridge... 2017. Pictured below, London Bridge...
There is a cabaret tonight at Shunt, starting at 6. You are all
invited. Only Shunt is now at Bermondsey Street. All of it. So if you're
lucky you might even be able to pick up a cheap chair. They're good,
I've bought two, carried them off like a bailiff following the father's
downfall in a Perrault. In other fairy-tale news: that small door
on Joiner Street leads nowhere now, because of course the Lounge beneath
London Bridge has - as I may have hinted at - after months of happy and
open communication between all parties keen to prove the viable
compatibility of artistic and commercial concerns, been suddenly thrown
out on its arse by a shower of useless pricks.
No
news is good news, and that's the news. I'm not really sure even now,
some three or four weeks after its last night, how much I'm allowed to
say or what the plan is, which is a bit why this blog - in which the
Lounge featured so centrally - has been so quiet recently... that and just
the abominable anger and sadness of how's it all transpired. Anyway
here, belatedly, are some stills from that last night, the 26th of June:
Of
course we'd already had a last night back in November, with the place
stripped and old changing-rooms re-revealed, and the recognition that
this wasn't just the Lounge we were saying goodbye to, but the spaces of
"Tropicana" and "Amalto Saltone", and that was a nice night with seeing
old friends and looking ahead and we knew where we stood. This night was
different, of course.
(I
don't know what's going on here, but four hours later there was an egg
and spoon race.)
And naturally the Shard asked Shunt to "leave the place
as they found it", but while we're not short of volunteers, none were
found willing to rip out the toilets, plumbing and electricity,
replant the sawn-off steel or smear shit back onto the walls, so sorry
about that.
Two
nights ago someone called Hilary came to see "Money". She had programmed
what turned out to be the Lounge's penultimate week, and had hung from
piercings in her shoulder while singing Verdi, something she can only do
once a month but that's not the point, the point is on Friday she
lit up as she told me something I had found for myself whenever I came
to put on work at the Lounge, but have probably never acknowledged here:
that there was nowhere as helpful, as generous, as responsible, as
unquestioningly encouraging or as just plain big and playable-in as
those vaults, let alone for free.
Hillary
told me she had made exactly what she wanted to make there. And
everyone had come, and nobody known what to expect. (And then I walked
home with a chair on my head.) So all I'm saying is, when I used to describe the Lounge in terms of a mini-Edinburgh-Fringe reprogrammed
weekly, impressive as that sounds I actually did it an enormous
disservice: it was far easier than that. Art got made there even by
accident. Not good art necessarily, of course not, but how
are you going to know until you put it in front of strangers?
And
there was no flyering, no feedback forms, no mentoring schemes, nothing
except anything you wanted. Half a panzer coming through a wall? George
would build it. A live seven-foot wide video link to New York above the
bar, or the running of a fake lift for your own promenade? Andrea would
rig it up and get two volunteers to stand either side with a cue sheet
and pneumatic forklift. And on and on. That was the Lounge. Something
like one hundred people on that payroll, three of them paid for by the
Arts Council. No really, just three. And now what? The Foundry gone this
past month too. And East 10. But it's the Eighties Revival, non?
"Always be closing."
"Oh
well, it keeps you honest!" said an old acquaintance. God, I hate poets.
Okay then, back to the ghetto. And while fifty per cent of the world's
cranes stand idle in Dubai, the Great Work of transforming London from a
temperamental network of human-scale cultures into a collection of
incredibly large, fucking stupid objects best viewed from twenty storeys
high proudly changes up a gear.
P.S.
With not quite the numb pang that accompanies the deleting of a dead
friend's number from your phone, I have removed the Lounge's video from
my homepage and placed it below. It's more of an advert than a tribute I
know, but what are you going to do? Oh yeah, you're going to come to the
cabaret! Tonight, quick! Here.
Maybe my slackness couldn't keep up with what seemed like the daily outrages of the Coalition, but I also remember feeling genuinely frightened which may again sound paranoid but the Paul Chambers case had proven that the wrong joke could indeed get you prosecuted, and while I didn't know Paul Chambers I did know people jailed for being present at the Fortnum and Mason demonstration in March: Boz for example, who was there recording sound for an afternoon play
for Radio 4. He was first held outside the jail, in the rain, for ten
hours, because the 24 hours you're allowed to detain someone for only
officially starts once they're inside. He was then put in a cell, and asked, every 45
minutes, if he needed anything. He would ask for a glass of water, but was never brought one. This carried on throughout the night, at regular 45 minute intervals, them asking if he wanted anything, him asking for a glass of water, meaning he was never allowed to sleep. Anything beautiful that happened in 2011 - and there was good news too - I remember feeling I had no right to record either against this unrecorded ugliness, so here instead is what greeted you if you visited the blog at all during that lacuna...
This is research by the way, for the sci-fi sitcom I am now
literally writing for a read-through in Mid-November. And working on the
floor of the London Dungeons has turned out to be a surprisingly
fertile writing location: you're physically active, you're uninhibitedly
improvising, and it's dark. Your mind is absolutely primed, it's
perfect, except there's just nothing to write with. Here I realised that
extra-terrestrial life's attitude towards sex would probably resemble
"green porno" a lot more than the icy butlers and headmistresses we're
normally shown. Ah, it's so good to see she's still making these...
