(originally posted on myspace here)
Internet
still down but I finally got round to transcribing the notes I took in
hospital and see now that nearly all of them were made during the one
24-hour steroid-enduced psychotic episode of February 17th, very far
from the "natural high" I took it to be. Throughout this episode I took
my own stats with the box that had been left by my bed and saw my blood
pressure sink finally to an acceptable level. And I slept on my back for
the first time in eleven days, and was Thor. So these are the notes
from that day and that night. Not all them: I also embarked upon the
first chapter of a children's book roundabout the time of the words
Epiphany for Everyone, my first concentrated stream of thought since I'd
been in hospital. And, as I think I've already recorded, I also
euphorically lost it with a visiting pyschiatric nurse called Anthony
Tang who refused to turn off his reading light at roundabout one in the
morning.
17th Tuesday Feb
Been given a whole Manga face of pills this morning. I take the mouth, the eyes, the Japanese tear
Shaky because of the NEURALIZOR (sp?) no nebulizer
SKELETOR (sp?)
I’ve been taken off 15cc Oxygen and put on 4. My coughing’s RUBBISH now. It brings up no smoke pups, NOTHING.
MOOMIN Page 38
TELL US ALL THAT’S HAPPENING IN THE WORLD!
FUSS AND MISERY…
Two of last night's dreams:
The freighter that picks me up from the Ice Flow is manned by tall silent men with long waterproofs, square heads but aquiline profiles, smooth black dishes for ears and receding chrome spirals on their head. Maybe the cube inverts to accommodate the face. Anyway a nice kind image.
The freighter that picks me up from the Ice Flow is manned by tall silent men with long waterproofs, square heads but aquiline profiles, smooth black dishes for ears and receding chrome spirals on their head. Maybe the cube inverts to accommodate the face. Anyway a nice kind image.
THE GOOMB MEN
They kind of looked like that but in a way that made sense, & each had a tiny cox on their head, like their trainer. The two wrestlers never actually fought they collapsed, knackered, but like they were playing a joke. A lot of controversy in the news after about how much more genetic tampering to allow these coxes. None about the genetic modification made to the wrestlers although it later struck me that they must have had some work done.
I WANT A MONTAGE!
AN EPIPHANY FOR EVERYONE
(in which everything suddenly makes sense)
Brilliantly I ended the evening wheeling around a cylinder of oxygen that I’d forgot to turn on.
FROM THE GUARDIAN 17.02.09
Paul
Garner co-organizer of the Creationist conference: Many people have the
mistaken impression that it’s Genesis, chapter one that drives young
creationism – a rigid understanding of the word “day” in the creation.
But that isn’t it at all. It’s Genesis three, it’s the introduction of
death and suffering and what you might call natural evil into the
creation. If those things pre-date Adam there’s a big theological
problem for me, because it undermines the foundation of the gospel. The
young-earth position is the only one that has a coherent understanding
of the history that doesn’t have suffering, death and bloodshed before
Adam’s fall.”
IS IT TOO MUCH TO ASK TO CHANGE WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?
I HOLD REALITY SACRED
DON’T TELL ME ABOUT SOMEBODY SOMEONE MADE UP FOR WHICH THERE’S NO EVIDENCE AND ASK ME TO PROVE HE DOESN’T EXIST.
I’M IN A BREAKING TARDIS
CLOSER
– NOT NARRATIVELY – BUT PHYSICALLY – TO DEATH – IE NOT EXISTING AND OF
COURSE ALL THE IDEAS ARE COMING. THIS IS INTERESTING. AND OFTEN
OBSERVED. IDEAS COME FROM NOT BEING
BUT 17th/18 it’s only NOW – 10 days in that I’m feeling weak enough to get it.
Man, if Jesus really was just one guy this is how he must have felt EVERY **ING DAY!
IN
MY MIND – IN MY MIND! – there is nothing sweeter than the idea of an
elderly man who must be at all hours attended by a tiny, sleeping Maori.
The reality, however, is a lot more unwise.
RELIGION
IS THE PARENT OF ART AND SCIENCE THERE IS NOTHING RELIGION CAN TEACH US
THAT ART AND SCIENCE CANNOT TEACH US MORE CLEARLY. BUT WE HAVEN’T HAD
ALL THE ART WE’RE EVER GOING TO HAVE YET. OR THE SCIENCE.
(WE MAY NOT HAVE HAD ALL THE RELIGION. BUT IT’S TELLING THAT THE “BEST” WAY TO DO THIS NOW AS L. RON HUBBARD WORKED OUT, IS JUST MAKE UP SOME VERY BAD ART AND THEN HIRE YOUR OWN POLICE FORCE.)
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